October was full - school was in full swing for the boys and the stress of midterms was felt around here. Sports and their shifts at work make their schedules full and not very negotiable so time together as a family of four is rare and much appreciated.
I had a busy conference schedule and lots of events at work that kept my mind occupied which was good. I also spent much of October still coming to terms with the loss of my PhD and had tremendous support from my family, colleagues and friends. I lost a friend and UBC colleague to early onset Alzheimers and her service at the yacht club was such a reminder to me about living your life. Heather was a force to be reckoned with and the quote at the end of her emails captured her essence - I will need to find it but essentially it was that life was not a journey to be safely set in your grave in a well-preserved body but to arrive broadside in a cloud of smoke, worn out, saying "wow, what a ride!" Heather managed to find a way to be a part of academia at UBC while retain the Heather-ness of who she was and this is what I respected about her so much. I am still figuring out my place - feeling kind of stuck in between places right now. There has definitely been some letting go for me this month - of my sense of failure, of worrying about what others will think of this debacle but I am feeling lighter and have more time to do things I want to do and am able to be more present for my family. A weight has been lifted in many ways for sure but there is still a niggle about this that I can't completely shake. I am filling my days up so the niggle doesn't get to me.
Colin played on the senior boys volleyball team for his high school this fall. So fun watching him play. It was touch and go with him and sports this fall...still suffering some concussion symptoms from last fall and a shoulder issue but he saw a concussion specialist and had an MRI and seems to be in the clear thank goodness.
October brings the onset of fall baking...
Thanksgiving with family...a reminder of how fortunate we are and how full our lives are.
I love the crispness and the colours of autumn.
At the end of October I made a trip down to Phoenix to present at a NCTM conference and I added a day on to the trip to visit with my dad. My sister Jen flew out from Philadelphia to join us and take care of some of my dad's accounts down south.
On to November...